This emotional roller-coaster we call life is not for the faint hearted. Just when you feel like you might be moving onward and upward a bad day, week, month smacks you in the face and reminds you the war is not over. On to the next battle. Let’s be upfront, depression is a jerk. It envelopes you into a world of darkness, doing its best to squeeze out all your light. It makes you think things that you aren’t even sure are your own thoughts. It is a liar.
As winter is winding down (or up again? hard to tell in Nova Scotia) I find myself feeling low, mood and energy wise. I was not looking forward to this winter, as last year in January I started a quick spiral into the worst depression and anxiety I have dealt with so far. While I’ve had a break from the depression since late this past spring, the extra anxiety has not fully left my side. A whole host of things that I used to feel okay about now give me muscle clenching anxiety. If I don’t make a conscious effort to relax my shoulders are reaching for my ears all day.