July is quickly coming to a close. It’s late at night, on a long weekend. I’ve left my blog post to the end of the day again. You think I would have learned my lesson by now. After a whole month of writing everyday I should know better. I am tempted to slam my computer closed and call it a night. But this is my last blog post of our July Blogging Challenge.
Earlier this month I was feeling down. I went to a bookstore for some retail therapy and let my thoughts run off to the far corners of my mind to try and find out what might be missing (sometimes dangerous, sometimes rewarding). I found myself feeling unhappy with where I am in life and like I was still waiting for my life to start (spoiler alert: still feeling this way). Every time someone asks me what I am doing now I always say I am still figuring out what I want to do. It feels like my life is on hold while I wait. And while I have some ideas of what I may want to do I am terrified to do anything about it. I am afraid of committing to jobs, careers, projects etc. Anything that might advance me in a direction I am interested in is scary.
May was a strange month. I found myself (mostly) settled into a routine with weeks at school and weekends in Belgium doing exactly what I set out to do, and yet I spent most of my time feeling the least inspired I have ever felt in just about every aspect of my life. I’m typically a ‘get-up-and-go’ type of person but an unusually persistent feeling of blah left me searching for new ways of finding inspiration. Here are five ways I used for finding inspiration when my ‘get-up-and-go’ got up and left.
Regulating myself is hard. When I take on a new project I dive in head first. Sometimes I forget about myself. I am so busy with my newest passion it consumes me. And that can be okay, but minutes can turn into hours, and I’ve forgotten to eat, hours can turn into days and I’ve forgotten to do laundry, dishes or talk to people. I’ve spent a good deal of time overwhelmed and overexerted.
I survived my first two weeks of pastry school! Week one was an introduction to the school and Maison Lenôtre, as well as a visit to the largest food market in the world in Rungis, and seeing the kitchen of the Pré Catelan, the 3 Michelin Star restaurant run by Chef Frédéric Anton, MOF (Best Craftsman of France). Week two was all in the kitchen, we made eclairs, chocolate tarts, apricot tarts, apple pastries, and an almond puff pastry called Pithivier. It was an intense two weeks learning an extraordinary amount – here are…
Last year while taking Yoga Teacher Training part of our Om-work was to write a letter to someone important in our life and say the positive things you would want them to hear, so we don’t miss our chance. At that time I struggled to put what I wanted to express into words, as the person who most needed to hear positive things from me was someone I was (and still am) having difficulties with. As we started to write content for this blog, and I tried to practice writing without being worried about it coming out perfectly, this letter poured out. While I wrote this letter specifically to someone in my life, after I read it I thought that it could be relevant to anyone in our lives facing challenges.